FLOODS

Tonight it's all come back. Tonight Faye and Alex are in Doncaster. A wonderful gesture made by my amazing wife. A quiet time i thought. A time where i had peace. A moment alone.Peace and quiet. Wrong! Tonight has been horrible for so many different reasons, Firstly because it's my first evening alone without my family and secondly i've just had so many memories come flooding back.
My time alone has really been spent casting my mind back whilst listening to music.Wow music really is so special you know. I remember so many important things. I miss my mamma. I don't think that i have missed her as much as i do now.No matter what song i play it only reminds me of her. I think that's pretty good.Queens silver jubilee springs out. My son's pictures on the wall make my smile.God he's everything. My wife.How i worried about her and the journey she took today with Alex. Proud is an understatement Faye. I adore you. I have realised that i am far from perfect and i need to change so many things. David , my brother so very far away. time is so so very precious. I will cherish the little time that we do have together. I hold no more grudges mate.What i have come to terms with more than anything else is that i cannot be here forever. It's very hard,you try it,especially with a family as wonderful as mine.